Anxiety Creeps In. Yet Assured.

Loves..
Some start fastly, yet some others start slowly.
Some start smoothly, yet some others start roughly.
Some start knowingly, yet some others start unconsciously.

There's no guarantee of perfect road no matter which way it started.
So I think there's no rule to when, where, or how we fall in love.
What I believe, it's love when our heart say so.

Loving someone is a choice.
I dare to love him, so I dare to accept anything that come within.
Because this is my choice. HE is my choice.

I'm responsible for my own choices.
It's my duty to fight for it and struggle.

But there also times I feel insecure.
..Yet when I look at my back, he's there.
He calmed me. He stand beside me.

And I realized.
He really is the one I need.
His presence is what makes me stronger.

With him, I feel like I can get through anything.
And I thank him, for being here.


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October 25, 2017
Fadhilah Huda I. M.

The Feelings Reached. Happiness On My Way.

I never thought that I would fall for someone again this fast.
I thought that I want to be alone for a little while.
But then he comes with all dreaminesses.
I couldn't resist someone I've dreamed for so long, while he stood right in front of me.

He's very charming indeed. Very beautiful indeed.
But I'm not a little girl searching for someone to swoon over anymore.
I'm now a lady longing for someone to be her future.
The way he thinks, speaks, and acts around me are what makes me drawn to him.

There might be some fault he mades.
There might be some wrong way he tooks.
But I'm just the same as that. Everyone too.
Humans do mistakes.
It's our job to make it better.
It's our chance to improve ourselves.
And I'll just believe what my eyes see and what my heart feels.

Because I'm ready to take on this road of love.
I'll use my seatbelt and go on with the course.
No matter how difficult it is, I'll just do my best to stay.
No matter how this ends, I'll just face it head on.
Though I really want this to be an endless last road.

I might not the prettiest girl he could ever get.
But I'll do my best to looks good in front of him.
I might not the first one to love him.
But I'm confident I could love him the most.

To you that finally reached,
Glad to know you and let's walk along together from now on.
Much love.


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October 3, 2017
Fadhilah Huda I. M.

To Someone That Might Be Unreachable.

"Look at you is all that I can do.
Like a silly girl I stare.."

 
I don't know since when it started.
Maybe since that time you make me feel conscious with your presence, or maybe even long before that.
I thought it was just a fleeting feelings.
And then I realized that my eyes keep looking for you, and my heart starts longing for you.

"Here I am, holding on to fate..
What we have may never change."

 
I keep telling myself that I should stop.
But the closer I get, the clearer my feelings becomes. And the farther I keep my distance, the more I wanted you to be near.
I don’t know how even a slight chance can make me this bewildered.
I’m not sure how much longer I can contain this feelings, holding it in. But I also afraid to take one step further.
Because you might be someone that I can never reach.

"Can't you see the love I hide slip through my eyes?
This silly girl so scared, she just can't say 'I Love You'."

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September 19, 2017
Fadhilah Huda I. M.

Quoted Song Lyrics: If You And Me - Juris

[Interest] Uchiha Sasuke

Hello~
I tell you before in my first post, that I really like Uchiha Sasuke from NARUTO series right? now I'll tell you a bit of my reason for liking him~ hoho

Uchiha Sasuke - NARUTO

He's the one I talked about. I like him since 2007, my cousin showed a PlayStation Game of NARUTO, I forgot what version of game it is. But, one to be sure, he caught at my eyes at the first sight xD
The reason is, because the clothes he wear in the game is blue, and that time I was really like blue color. And the other reason is I interested in his hairstyle that looks like a cock's tail(?) =)))
It's can be called he's my first love. oh please don't laugh at me =))
I like his personality, he's a tsundere, and so full of himself, it makes him so cute in my opinion haha.

Picture source: Google 
© Kishimoto Masashi

Hello~

Hi~ This is my first time posting in this blog~

Actually this is not my first blog, I've ever make some blogs before, but because some reasons I think I want to start a new blog. And honestly, I don't really know what to say at this first post. Maybe I'll just introduce myself a little, so please bear with it haha xD

My birth name is Fadhilah Huda Intishar Madani. I prefer to be called Dhilah~ I'm born in April 3. An Indonesian. I'm the 1st child, I have 3 little sisters, and 1 little brother.

I'm addicted with pink colors, almost all my things are pink. A cat lover too. Really love plushie, but dislike a ball-jointed doll and such. And I love snack! haha. My favorite numbers are 3, 9, 12, 21, 4, 39, 69, and 93. Ah, I love vanilla flavor the most, and then Melon flavor, Orange flavor, and Taro flavor. I'm interested with east-asian language, specifically Japanese, Korean, and Chinese.

And then, talk about interest, I really love cosplay. I'm a cosplayer, still not too long though. I start cosplaying around June 2012. My first cosplay is Nico Robin from One Piece. My favorite cosplayers are Reika, Yuegene, Aza, Baozi and Hana.

The reason why I start cosplay is because I'm a slightly otaku. I love anime and manga. I'm not really following all of them, only if those are interesting for me. My favorite anime is NARUTO, Kuroko no Basket, One Piece, Fairy Tail, Bleach, etc. My all-time most favorite male character is Uchiha Sasuke (NARUTO), and Aomine Daiki (Kuroko no Basket) too. Then my most favorite female character is Haruno Sakura (NARUTO), Momoi Satsuki (Kuroko no Basket), and Sonoda Umi (Love Live!). Actually there are more animes and characters I like, but if I must write all of those this post will me overload~ =)))

Beside cosplay, I also into the voice-acting world because of my interest in anime. It's called "Seiyuu" in Japanese. Male seiyuu I like the most is Kimura Ryouhei, and for female seiyuu it is Mimori Suzuko. I think I want to try to do a voice-acting too :D

oho~ and then this is for K-Pop's section~
I'M A S♡NE!! I LOVE GIRLS' GENERATION / SO NYEO SHI DAE!!! haha xD
I really love them. I've loved them for a long time, since 2009. My most favorite member is Taeyeon, I really, really like her, I set her as my role-figure. And then Yoona is my 2nd favorite~
I like f(x), 2PM, U-Kiss, Super Junior, T-ARA, CNBLUE too. but now I'm no longer following them like I usually did back then.
For now, I'm just following SNSD. And lately, I really into this group, then ended following them too.. it's EXO, they're really interesting, and I become an EXO-L too. ahaha. My most favorite is Baekhyun and Chanyeol, can't decide which one I like the most, because I really like both of them the most from all the members xD

I suppose, this is enough of my introduction. I'm sorry to bore you~
Nice to meet you~ :3


Sincerely,
Dhilah~